16 week update

I had my OB visit today and for the first time this pregnancy I didn't have an ultrasound. I have one scheduled next week though so I won't have long before I see my babies again. I need to buy a scrapbook to keep all these ultrasound pictures in because I've gotten a pile of them.

The OB visit was uneventful. My Dr. was not happy when I told him that I wanted a vbac, but he did say he would let me try IF my pregnancy is uneventful. I will schedule a csection at 37 weeks and I'm completely comfortable with that. I need to get the twins out by 37 weeks and I don't want pitocin since it will weaken my uterus. Basically I have to go into labor on my own and the twins can't be in any distress whatsoever, which I think is fair. Dr Hall doesn't think I will make it to 37 weeks though, he is pretty confident that something will happen that will cause us to need to get the twins out sooner. I know most people would roll their eyes at this, but I know he is right. I know my pregnancy is high risk and I realize I am a small person and have already had complications so I am fully prepared to go into any appointment after 30 weeks and be told that we are having babies that day. But then again, I'm not in control this pregnancy and neither is Dr. Hall. God gave me these babies and he will get them here whenever and however he chooses.

On Mother's day I went to church and heard part of a great Sermon. (I payed more attention to Mason). The speaker started talking about his mom's pregnancies. He said that she had 3 pregnancies, but gave birth to a stillborn. He said that before she gave birth to her first child she was administered to and her baby lived, the second pregnancy she did not get administered to at delivery and her child died, and her third pregnancy she was administered to again at delivery and her child lived. She knew that her children lived due to the administration. When he said that I was completely flooded with God's comforting Spirit. I have been administered to three times already. I knew God was telling me that he was blessing me and would continue to bless me because of the administration and my babies would be okay. I needed that so bad because I have had a very hard week emotionally. 

I really need to take an updated belly pic. I will post that next time.

I have started making baby purchases. I'm pretty proud about this because I didn't want to purchase anything until after 24 weeks, but I'm making myself treat this pregnancy as if I'm not high risk. I have bought a Petunia Pickle Bottom diaper bag, possibly a double stroller (purchase pending), and we are a few weeks away from buying a new car. I really shouldn't feel so comfortable in this pregnancy but I really am very calm about the whole thing. Every once in awhile it will hit me that I'm high risk and I will freak out a little, but for the most part I feel calm. I don't think the fact that I'm going to have two newborns in a little over 20 weeks has really sunk in yet.