I am amazed at how many people think now that I'm pregnant I welcome advice and stories of pregnancies gone wrong. People also wants to get all up in my uterus and tell me how to handle my pregnancy. Guess what? It's my body, these are my babies, no I don't want to hear about how your friends daughter lost her twins to some rare disease. I love answering questions, if people want to know if we used fertility treatment I will gladly tell them our story because our story is freaking awesome, but I'd much rather not know their own horror stories.
1. Why are you tired? Did you not get enough sleep last night?
Oh I've only doubled my blood supply and I'm growing two tiny humans inside my body while also being too sick to eat. But yeah, lets go with the sleep deprived theory because that makes SOOOO much more sense!!
2. I was pregnant with twins once, but I lost them in the second trimester.
Oh please, I want to hear all about how you lost your twins because that won't make me worried at ALL! Can you please elaborate on the fact that twins are very high risk and that they can die at any time during pregnancy because I really want to know all about the sad and scary part of a twin pregnancy.
3. How did you manage to conceive twins?
Well, when a man and a woman love each other sometimes they choose to show it.....blah blah blah. There is no trick to making twins. God chose to give me twins because for some reason he knows I am strong enough to handle them. I don't know why he gave me twins when I'm an unorganized, worry wort med school wife, but its his plan.
4. I wish I had identical twins!
Okay yes I am thankful for my twins. I love them both and I want them both. But if God would have come to me 14 weeks ago and asked if I wanted twins I would have told him "Heck to the NO". So why does this comment bother me? TWINS ARE HARD PEOPLE!!!!! If you want identical twins then you obviously haven't educated yourself on the risks of identical twin pregnancy. My life right now consists of drinking 3 protein drinks a day, laying on the couch and watching my toddler run wild because I'm not allowed to pick him up, drinking 4 bottles of water a day just to keep the cramps manageable, crying because I don't know what the next ultrasound will bring and researching doctors to perform surgery on the twins just in case we need to do emergency laser surgery on the twins. I'm going to develop a twitch by the end of this pregnancy because of how stressful this has become. I have to stay educated though because monochorionic twins aren't all that common so some doctors don't treat them the way they need to be treated and I need to make sure I am getting the best care possible and leave no stone left unturned. Twins are cute, they are fun, they are a blessing but I do envy the moms of singletons who can relax at 12 weeks and start preparing for a baby while I can't relax until 36 weeks. What gets me through the day is a LOT of prayer because God brought me to this so he is gonna have to get me through it.
5. My cousin has identical twins named John and Lily.
Oh really! Thats cool, I wasn't aware that doctors were now considering a penis and a vagina identical. You learn something new everyday.
6. Your doctor is uneducated if he thinks you can't deliver these twins naturally, you should get a second opinion.
Okay first of all, the scheduled csection was my choice and second of all, if you think monochorionic twins should be delivered naturally, you haven't done enough research. I've already spent 5 weeks researching this, come back to me in 5 weeks and lets see if you still feel that way. My uterus, my babies, my choice!!
7. You cant be feeling like _________(fill in blank with whatever) I didn't feel that way until I was ___weeks with my baby.
Oh really? Everything that you felt at ___ weeks, I will feel twice as fast. Double the amniotic fluid, double the baby, double the placenta, double the belly (seriously have you looked at pics of twin moms before they deliver, shudder)
8. Oh you have a 1 year old...oh your husband is in med school. (long awkward pause) Good Luck!
What! I thought that having twins would make my life EASIER!
9. Geez your moody, what's your problem?
Bet your can't guess who says this to me. lol. Okay ladies who have been pregnant before, do you remember those crazy pregnant mood swings and pregnancy induced rage? Yeah well with twins its worse. Usually I can keep my temper really well but lately I've had so many mood swings that I just say whatever and have no filter.
10. You need to increase your hours at work so you can pay for the twins.
Okay I little background info on this one, I had just gotten done saying that the twins are more important than money. I had been on bedrest for 3 weeks and was attempting to go back to work but was saying that if anymore complications came up I would have to be off work for good.
Yes I need money to pay for the twins, but before I think about paying for the twins I need to actually get them here. The logic here made no sense to me.
Okay so thats all the dumb comments that have been made to me so far. I'm sure I will have more later and will be able to write a part 2. Oh and just wait till the twins are born, I'm sure I will be able to write a book from the comments I get.
Friday, April 26, 2013
Monday, April 22, 2013
13 week update and new belly picture
This will be short since I don't have a whole lot to update. I've started feeling movement. I only feel it when I'm sitting and I'm sure I'm feeling it early because there are two babies kicking me. Baby A and Baby B had a fight this week and B moved to the far left side of my uterus while A moved to my right. They made up today though and are snuggling together right in the middle. I have a doppler that I use to listen to their heartbeats everyday so I'm able to know their location. My fetal doppler is the best purchase I have made. It helped me so much last pregnancy and this pregnancy it is really helping to be able to listen to them and know that they are still alive. I have an appointment with my high risk doctor on the 6th of May. I should know the genders at that appointment. If we are 90% sure of the gender I will do an online gender reveal party on here. :) 15 weeks is still pretty early to be sure though so I may have to wait until my 17 week ultrasound.
Walking has actually gotten difficult. My uterus is growing so fast that my poor muscles can't keep up. I have round ligament pain a LOT and there is so much pressure that I feel like I'm going to walk to much and the babies are going to just fall out. I bent over yesterday and pulled an abdominal muscle. That was fun. In order to roll over in bed I have to do it very slowly or I will pull a muscle. I will remind you all, I'm THIRTEEN WEEKS. Oh em gee this is going to be a long pregnancy. It's not that I'm getting super big, but I'm just growing fast and it hurts.
I have been cleared to go back to work a few days this week. As long as everything goes okay I will be back to my regular hours next week. Yay for having money again. :) If any work friends are reading this, thank you all for being understanding and covering for me. (and shout out to Erika, hope you get well soon).
Okay here ya go. I'm going to post my belly picture for today and my 19 week picture with Mason so you can see how different my belly is this time compared to last pregnancy. I really need Jared to start taking my belly pictures so I can get some good ones instead of all these pictures of me looking horrible in the mirror.
13w with twins
Walking has actually gotten difficult. My uterus is growing so fast that my poor muscles can't keep up. I have round ligament pain a LOT and there is so much pressure that I feel like I'm going to walk to much and the babies are going to just fall out. I bent over yesterday and pulled an abdominal muscle. That was fun. In order to roll over in bed I have to do it very slowly or I will pull a muscle. I will remind you all, I'm THIRTEEN WEEKS. Oh em gee this is going to be a long pregnancy. It's not that I'm getting super big, but I'm just growing fast and it hurts.
I have been cleared to go back to work a few days this week. As long as everything goes okay I will be back to my regular hours next week. Yay for having money again. :) If any work friends are reading this, thank you all for being understanding and covering for me. (and shout out to Erika, hope you get well soon).
Okay here ya go. I'm going to post my belly picture for today and my 19 week picture with Mason so you can see how different my belly is this time compared to last pregnancy. I really need Jared to start taking my belly pictures so I can get some good ones instead of all these pictures of me looking horrible in the mirror.
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| 19w with Mason |
Sunday, April 21, 2013
Yes I am a GOOD mom!
One thing that has really bugged me for awhile is moms judging other moms. We all have our own parenting styles and while we all know our own personal parenting style is the best, its not our job to push our parenting style on others. I hear people talk about their parenting style that's different than mine and yes I want to say "Are you CRAZY!!!" but instead I keep my mouth shut and judge in silence and then later go to Jared and say "You will never guess what this mom said today". Ha Ha. Okay so I'm not completely innocent with the whole judging thing, but learning to keep my mouth shut and silently judge is a step in the right direction. I am a member of plenty of mommy groups on facebook and honestly I don't know why I even bother with some of them. I'm so tired of hearing people tell moms that vaccinate that they are uneducated and filling their children with harmful chemicals (I'm going to have Jared write a post on why we vaccinate sometime), its so annoying how moms that do vaccinate tell moms that don't that they are going to subject their kids to all these vaccine preventable diseases and how its irresponsible. I hate how moms tell women that don't circumcise that their kids are going to get an infection and their penis will fall off, but my number one most hated judgement of all time is moms that don't circumcise telling moms that do that they are participating in genital mutilation. If anyone dares to tell me that to my face I swear I will lunge at them. Why do women feel like another childs genitals are any business of theirs? Its honestly pretty creepy. I'm all for a good debate on parenting topics, but once the debate turns personal it really turns me off.
One more thing I hate, moms telling other moms that they are uneducated. Sorry crunchy moms, but this is something I hear from you guys more than I hear it from soggy moms. In fact I have never heard it from a soggy mom, but maybe that's because I hang out with more crunchy moms. Just because a mom makes a decision that is different than yours does not mean she is uneducated. I researched every decision I made and guess what, I came up with a different conclusion than most crunchy moms. Does that make the crunchy moms wrong? No. Does that make me wrong? No. It makes us different and that's okay.
So here goes. I am a GOOD mom. I breastfeed my toddler, I coslept till Mason was 1, the TV is my babysitter, we practice CIO (cry it out), Mason lives in his jammies most days, we eat spaghettios and other processed food, we have a schedule and try to stick by it, sometimes Mason stays up till 10 if we have company over, we believe in spanking, we pray with Mason before every meal and bedtime, we pray with Mason when he is crying and we can't get him to stop, we have toys in Masons bedroom, our house is usually a mess, Mason has eaten dog food on a number of occations, I get ultrasounds every chance I get and may get one every week, I'm getting a scheduled csection for these babies, yes I drug my babies for my own personal comfort (epidural), I don't always make Mason wear a jacket when we go outside, we give Mason lots of hugs and kisses, we read to Mason a lot, we bribe our kids with candy, we vaccinate, we circumcise, sometimes we lose our temper and yell, Mason drinks juice every once in awhile, Mason has drank coffee (thank you daddy), we let teenagers watch Mason on occation, we declined to do the heb b vaccine at birth, I will attempt potty training at 18 months, we use disposable diapers, I basically raise Mason on my own, Mason was just dancing to Bon Jovi instead of appropriate kids songs, I will breastfeed my twins but at times they may get formula, and I don't always know where Mason is when we are in the house. But guess what? I AM A GOOD MOM!! I AM A GREAT MOM!! This is what works for my family and even though I'm not perfect, I am super mom! Heck I grow two kids at a time. Superman doesn't even hold a candle to what I can do. :) Sometimes us moms just need to toot our own horns because we are all awesome and don't hear that enough, instead we hear all these judgements. Its just not right.
I AM A ROCKSTAR MOM
One more thing I hate, moms telling other moms that they are uneducated. Sorry crunchy moms, but this is something I hear from you guys more than I hear it from soggy moms. In fact I have never heard it from a soggy mom, but maybe that's because I hang out with more crunchy moms. Just because a mom makes a decision that is different than yours does not mean she is uneducated. I researched every decision I made and guess what, I came up with a different conclusion than most crunchy moms. Does that make the crunchy moms wrong? No. Does that make me wrong? No. It makes us different and that's okay.
So here goes. I am a GOOD mom. I breastfeed my toddler, I coslept till Mason was 1, the TV is my babysitter, we practice CIO (cry it out), Mason lives in his jammies most days, we eat spaghettios and other processed food, we have a schedule and try to stick by it, sometimes Mason stays up till 10 if we have company over, we believe in spanking, we pray with Mason before every meal and bedtime, we pray with Mason when he is crying and we can't get him to stop, we have toys in Masons bedroom, our house is usually a mess, Mason has eaten dog food on a number of occations, I get ultrasounds every chance I get and may get one every week, I'm getting a scheduled csection for these babies, yes I drug my babies for my own personal comfort (epidural), I don't always make Mason wear a jacket when we go outside, we give Mason lots of hugs and kisses, we read to Mason a lot, we bribe our kids with candy, we vaccinate, we circumcise, sometimes we lose our temper and yell, Mason drinks juice every once in awhile, Mason has drank coffee (thank you daddy), we let teenagers watch Mason on occation, we declined to do the heb b vaccine at birth, I will attempt potty training at 18 months, we use disposable diapers, I basically raise Mason on my own, Mason was just dancing to Bon Jovi instead of appropriate kids songs, I will breastfeed my twins but at times they may get formula, and I don't always know where Mason is when we are in the house. But guess what? I AM A GOOD MOM!! I AM A GREAT MOM!! This is what works for my family and even though I'm not perfect, I am super mom! Heck I grow two kids at a time. Superman doesn't even hold a candle to what I can do. :) Sometimes us moms just need to toot our own horns because we are all awesome and don't hear that enough, instead we hear all these judgements. Its just not right.
I AM A ROCKSTAR MOM
Thursday, April 18, 2013
Monochorionic Twins
Most people think there are only two types of twins, fraternal or identical. Its actually not quite so simple. If 2 eggs are released the twins will be dichorionic diamniotic fraternal twins. These types of twins make up 75% of all twin pregnancies. If 1 egg is released and splits early the twins will be identical dichorionic diamniotic twins but will resemble a fraternal twin pregnancy and a chromosomal test needs to be ran to determine if the twins are identical or fraternal. I will stress ALL BOY/GIRL TWINS ARE FRATERNAL!!! A penis does not resemble a vagina. You would not believe how many boy/girl twin moms get asked if their twins are identical. In fact today I saw one boy/girl twin mom online asking if she needs chromosomal testing to determine identical twins. NO! NO! NO!
Second type of twins is what I have. Monochorionic diamniotic. It occurs when 1 egg splits later and the babies share 1 placenta but have two amniotic sacs. This type makes up about .3% of all pregnancies. (Lucky me). Although this isn't the most dangerous form of twins, it still has many risks. If twins share a placenta, there share a central blood supply. A fatal condition called twin to twin transfusion (or TTTS) happens in 20% of all monochorionic twins. This is when one twin donates all its blood to the other twin. If it is caught early enough, surgery can be used to correct this condition. It is the one thing all identical twin moms fear and the reason that most pregnant identical twin moms aren't jumping for joy over the fact that they will have two look a likes running around in a few months. The best part of being pregnant with identical twins, LOTS of ultrasounds. I get to see the twins every 2 weeks.
Its so easy to fear the unknown. I've been freaking out lately over what could happen. Every little ache and pain I worry that the twins are in danger. I am afraid to get too attached to the twins, I have thought about not finding out the gender until birth because knowing who I'm growing inside of me will make it that much harder if I lose them. But I am their mother and they are my children and the fact is I am completely out of control with this one. All I can do is love them and trust that God will take care of their needs. One night as I was reading about TTTS and freaking out about everything that could go wrong with my babies I had the thought "I know the plans I have for you" come into my heart very forcefully. That's when I realized that I should not doubt God. In reality these twins should be dead right now, I've had so much bleeding and most people that bleed as much as I have would be bleeding because their baby died. Instead God has protected my babies. Why should I assume that God would stop taking care of my babies later on? Am I scared? YES! Will my worry help save my babies? No. So I guess this will just be a big test of faith cause there is really nothing I can do to control our situation.
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| Here are all the different forms of twins. Monoamniotic occurs in 1% of all twin pregnancies and has a 50% mortality rate. Conjoined twins are so rare that most conjoined twins get their own TV show on TLC. |
Its so easy to fear the unknown. I've been freaking out lately over what could happen. Every little ache and pain I worry that the twins are in danger. I am afraid to get too attached to the twins, I have thought about not finding out the gender until birth because knowing who I'm growing inside of me will make it that much harder if I lose them. But I am their mother and they are my children and the fact is I am completely out of control with this one. All I can do is love them and trust that God will take care of their needs. One night as I was reading about TTTS and freaking out about everything that could go wrong with my babies I had the thought "I know the plans I have for you" come into my heart very forcefully. That's when I realized that I should not doubt God. In reality these twins should be dead right now, I've had so much bleeding and most people that bleed as much as I have would be bleeding because their baby died. Instead God has protected my babies. Why should I assume that God would stop taking care of my babies later on? Am I scared? YES! Will my worry help save my babies? No. So I guess this will just be a big test of faith cause there is really nothing I can do to control our situation.
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
Complications, 3D picture, and belly pictures (Warning! Very Graphic!!)
After the realization kicked in about having twins I had a few weeks to "enjoy" my new pregnancy. I was in an ignorant state of bliss until I went to work at 8 weeks 1 day. In the middle of the day I was working with my boss on a new patient when I suddenly started peeing my pants. I couldn't believe that I was already losing bladder control at 8 weeks! I ran to the bathroom and as I was running the "peeing" got heavier. I got into the bathroom and looked down at my pants that were now covered in BLOOD!! My stomach sank and my heart started racing. I closed my eyes and waited for the cramping to start. "So this is what a miscarriage is like" was the kinds of thoughts that were racing through my head. I sat on the toilet to clean up and blood just poured out. That's when it hit me, I wasn't cramping. I hadn't been cramping all day. In fact I was feeling nauseous. I still smelled like the Wendys burger I had just had at lunch and I wanted to puke. I was not miscarrying! Thank the Lord that I had studied a little about bleeding in pregnancy because at the realization of no cramps I calmly had someone drive me to the ER and joked around with the nurses in the ER until I was able to get an ultrasound. The nurses and doctor were more concerned than I was. Jared kept stroking my hair thinking I needed someone to calm me down, but I was good. There was no way I was miscarrying. The ultrasound showed two perfectly healthy babies. That's when I lost it a little and realized I was more concerned than what I thought and the realization that the babies really were okay was a huge relief. I went home to rest for a week.
One week later I was back at work when I felt that awful peeing feeling again. I ran to the bathroom and sure enough, there was a little bit of blood. I had a blood clot the size of an egg come out and the bleeding stopped. I was scared to look at the clot because I didn't want to see my babies in there. I went home to rest. The next day I went to my doctors and again the ultrasound showed two healthy babies, and baby B immediately started waving at me as if to say "It's okay mom, we are okay". Again I took 1 week off to rest.
I went back to work the following Tuesday and had no bleeding. Ignorantly I thought I was in the clear. Wednesday at 9am I stood up from my chair at work and the blood just poured out. At the time I was sure the blood had completely filled the toilet once I was able to get to the bathroom, but that's probably an exaggeration. I got in at the doctor immediately and went to pick Jared up at school. I almost didn't make it to his school because I was so dizzy and I was getting a headache from all the blood loss. I was too afraid to move to the passenger seat once Jared got in the car because every time I stood up, clots would come out. (its the worst feeling in the world, having clots come out that you aren't sure are blood clots or your own children). I got to the clinic and again the ultrasound showed two healthy babies. This time we saw a medium sized bleed in my uterus right on top of my cervix. It's called a subchorionic hematoma. It happens when the placenta tears away from the uterine wall and then reattaches itself. The risk of miscarriage due to a SCH is 1-3% so its not extremely dangerous, but can cause a lot of problems later on in pregnancy if its not able to resolve. I was put on modified bedrest until I was bleed free for 2 weeks.
I had my 12 week appointment on Monday and it showed that my SCH has shrunk by more than 1/2 its original size. It also showed that I have placenta previa and the placenta may be attached slightly to my csection scar and the bleed is attached to the other side of my csection scar. The previa and the csection scar will need to be monitored a little more closely but we are all expecting the placenta to move once my uterus starts growing bigger. All in all it was good news. I have a referral to a high risk specialist and I should start getting biweekly ultrasounds starting at either 14 or 16 weeks. I will explain more about that later.
As promised, my 3D ultrasound
Belly pic at 10w 5d. I am 12w 2d now but my belly hasn't changed much. I will take an updated pic soon I promise.
And here is 16 weeks with Mason to compare.
Yep, I'm in trouble. I don't think I'm going to avoid stretchmarks this time around.
One week later I was back at work when I felt that awful peeing feeling again. I ran to the bathroom and sure enough, there was a little bit of blood. I had a blood clot the size of an egg come out and the bleeding stopped. I was scared to look at the clot because I didn't want to see my babies in there. I went home to rest. The next day I went to my doctors and again the ultrasound showed two healthy babies, and baby B immediately started waving at me as if to say "It's okay mom, we are okay". Again I took 1 week off to rest.
I went back to work the following Tuesday and had no bleeding. Ignorantly I thought I was in the clear. Wednesday at 9am I stood up from my chair at work and the blood just poured out. At the time I was sure the blood had completely filled the toilet once I was able to get to the bathroom, but that's probably an exaggeration. I got in at the doctor immediately and went to pick Jared up at school. I almost didn't make it to his school because I was so dizzy and I was getting a headache from all the blood loss. I was too afraid to move to the passenger seat once Jared got in the car because every time I stood up, clots would come out. (its the worst feeling in the world, having clots come out that you aren't sure are blood clots or your own children). I got to the clinic and again the ultrasound showed two healthy babies. This time we saw a medium sized bleed in my uterus right on top of my cervix. It's called a subchorionic hematoma. It happens when the placenta tears away from the uterine wall and then reattaches itself. The risk of miscarriage due to a SCH is 1-3% so its not extremely dangerous, but can cause a lot of problems later on in pregnancy if its not able to resolve. I was put on modified bedrest until I was bleed free for 2 weeks.
I had my 12 week appointment on Monday and it showed that my SCH has shrunk by more than 1/2 its original size. It also showed that I have placenta previa and the placenta may be attached slightly to my csection scar and the bleed is attached to the other side of my csection scar. The previa and the csection scar will need to be monitored a little more closely but we are all expecting the placenta to move once my uterus starts growing bigger. All in all it was good news. I have a referral to a high risk specialist and I should start getting biweekly ultrasounds starting at either 14 or 16 weeks. I will explain more about that later.
As promised, my 3D ultrasound
Saturday, April 13, 2013
The beginning of our crazy journey
As the title of my blog states, my husband is a medical student. I don't think many people knows what that actually means. I tell people "My husband is a med student" and everyone is either like "Oh thats Great!!" or "Does he know what he wants to do yet?". There has only been one person who has given us a response that is true to our situation and that is my OBGYN. He asked my husband what year he was and Jared said 1st year and my doctor about fell off his stool laughing. Yep, medical school isn't like anything anyone can ever imagine unless you have actually experienced it. Imagine having to know every little thing about a persons body, every little disease and how it affects the different body systems, and every little drug that will help that disease while also knowing what drugs are contraindicated for people with certain conditions. Now imagine you have to learn all that in TWO YEARS!!! So when people mention the term "Med School Widow", yes people that is a real thing. I am a med school widow. I see Jared at bedtime and after midterms and finals. He disappears for 6 week blocks and then I get him for 1 weekend (or more if there is a long break) and then he goes into hiding again until the next block is over. So that's part of my life right now. Jared has 1 more year of classes, 2 years of clinicals and 3 or more years of residency.
We have one son, Mason, who is 14 months old. We struggled with infertility for 3 years before we had him. We finally got medical help and after 3 IUI's we conceived Mason and had a very smooth pregnancy and a complicated delivery that lasted 40 hours and ended in a csection. I always kind of wanted twins until I conceived Mason. Once I started getting bigger I laughed at myself everytime I remembered that I originally wanted twins. Carrying one was hard enough, and that was with an easy pregnancy.
Fast forward to February of this year. I started feeling very "off". I was craving chips and salsa like crazy (my first symptom with Mason.) BTW if anyone wants an insanely good pregnancy salsa recipe I have just the one. I lived off of this salsa for the first couple weeks of both pregnancies. Anyway, I bought a pregnancy test and it was inconclusive. I thought there was a line, but wasn't sure. Two days later on Valentine's day I took another test. Jared was with me and I showed him the test and said started talking about how I hate this brand of test because it always has a line and then it disappears. As I was talking I looked at the test and realized the line wasn't disappearing. It in fact was getting very dark pink!! I grabbed the test and I panicked. How was I pregnant?!?!? I was supposed to be infertile. How did I end up having an accidental pregnancy!?? Jared and I went to bed that night just staring at a wall. Neither of us knew how we would manage a baby during med school.
At 6 weeks pregnant I started having some horrible cramping. I went to the ER where they did an ultrasound. The tech found the heartrate of 111. I was over the moon!! I had a living child inside me. :) My joy was short lived when the tech turned the screen away from me so I couldn't see what she was looking at, but she couldn't hide her face. She looked concerned. She took a lot of measurements and I was sure she found something wrong with my tubes. After a few minutes she looked straight at me and said "Now I don't want you to panic just yet alright because I could be wrong, but I see two heartbeats". I immediately panicked. Jared was just laughing at me as I went through all different kinds of emotions. I went from being excited to scared. Twins means twice the risk, twice the money, twice the attention, and a freaking huge belly!!!!! I don't think anyone can bounce back fully after having a twin belly. I didnt realize how much of a nightmare this pregnancy really would be. I'll talk about that in another post though.
So my new reality is that I'm married to a med student and soon will have 3 kids under 2. Fasten your seat belts folks. Things are gonna get interesting.
We have one son, Mason, who is 14 months old. We struggled with infertility for 3 years before we had him. We finally got medical help and after 3 IUI's we conceived Mason and had a very smooth pregnancy and a complicated delivery that lasted 40 hours and ended in a csection. I always kind of wanted twins until I conceived Mason. Once I started getting bigger I laughed at myself everytime I remembered that I originally wanted twins. Carrying one was hard enough, and that was with an easy pregnancy.
Fast forward to February of this year. I started feeling very "off". I was craving chips and salsa like crazy (my first symptom with Mason.) BTW if anyone wants an insanely good pregnancy salsa recipe I have just the one. I lived off of this salsa for the first couple weeks of both pregnancies. Anyway, I bought a pregnancy test and it was inconclusive. I thought there was a line, but wasn't sure. Two days later on Valentine's day I took another test. Jared was with me and I showed him the test and said started talking about how I hate this brand of test because it always has a line and then it disappears. As I was talking I looked at the test and realized the line wasn't disappearing. It in fact was getting very dark pink!! I grabbed the test and I panicked. How was I pregnant?!?!? I was supposed to be infertile. How did I end up having an accidental pregnancy!?? Jared and I went to bed that night just staring at a wall. Neither of us knew how we would manage a baby during med school.
At 6 weeks pregnant I started having some horrible cramping. I went to the ER where they did an ultrasound. The tech found the heartrate of 111. I was over the moon!! I had a living child inside me. :) My joy was short lived when the tech turned the screen away from me so I couldn't see what she was looking at, but she couldn't hide her face. She looked concerned. She took a lot of measurements and I was sure she found something wrong with my tubes. After a few minutes she looked straight at me and said "Now I don't want you to panic just yet alright because I could be wrong, but I see two heartbeats". I immediately panicked. Jared was just laughing at me as I went through all different kinds of emotions. I went from being excited to scared. Twins means twice the risk, twice the money, twice the attention, and a freaking huge belly!!!!! I don't think anyone can bounce back fully after having a twin belly. I didnt realize how much of a nightmare this pregnancy really would be. I'll talk about that in another post though.
So my new reality is that I'm married to a med student and soon will have 3 kids under 2. Fasten your seat belts folks. Things are gonna get interesting.
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